46th night was the scariest.

Maa, You remember when I was in Scindia, I used to write letters how much I missed you all. Well I used to tell you that I am doing pretty awesome in studies as well as sports and kept on asking you when would you come to meet me. And when sometimes you said that Papa and you are making some plans and I instantly used to negate it and say " Just chuck it Maa, Needn't come ! I am doing fine"

Bhaiya Remember I asked you once "what should I do now?" and you said " Don't worry, Just don't be afraid" I still remember them so distinctly that today I am not afraid of anything. Really anything.

This girl I love so much said to me today " My new guy is irritated of you too ?" I didn't intially realize what was she trying to do. Was she trying to hurt me or anything else. Then I felt that all what she is trying to convey is "Don't mess with my life anymore, I am really happy with him. The more you mess, I get sure of the fact that you don't love me anymore as you used to" And I thought to drop the phone down. Guess what, My intention to call was something really genuine and at the end it became a mere reason for enroachment.

Suck it up Saurabh. Just suck it up. After all that's what you wanted, remember. But you didn't know it's gonna be that brutal. But it's okay. Somethings are just out of your control.

I want to marry this girl. I really want to marry this girl. I will really love her and keep her happy. She is the ultimate bitch and she tops it. She has as much ego as I have, She is the queen. You know, I never thought a person like her can change my mind. But 3 years down the line , I have so much respect for myself and her that I feel happy that we will keep each other happy. But there is irony, she won't marry me. And the more I would enroach her life, she will definately never.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh.................Bhainchod, Madharchod, Behan ka taka,Bhonsri Wala, Teri maa kee choot mein chhipkali ka ****, harami ke aulad, randi ke aulad, gadhe ka lund, laude ke baal, gaandu, gaand ka baal, bhadwe ke chhathhi aulad, Suarr ke aulad,it can go on....and the worse i haven't used it.
(Huh What was that for ?) I abused myself.. I just abused myself honestly.

I really get angry then I use these lovely words. It's not to abuse.Sometimes when one shout these words loudly it takes the frustration out. Just like when we were preparing for JEE and some question is not getting solved, we made sure we won't get up till that question is solved. Kinda makes you feel relieved. Rest of you, cummon don't be so amazed everybody in this world uses it.

When Gautum Gambhir can say so openly in front of whole country " Teri maa kee chut" to Shahid Afridi, why can't I. I am not fucking afraid of my parents knowing the truth.

Trust me, It was for me...  I l cherish every moment, I cherish every moment.