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Thursday, March 30, 2006

Urban Nomad

I am not a gay yet i love to stray
i am sorry to say that horses neigh, but
that's my way to start everyday

I was 11 when i went to boarding skool
there I only learnt how to drool
i can still remember the vivid land
where the student bullied me with a wand.

I aint a prodigy, so lets be real
wasn't a fob but always chilled
afraid to shoot, but a wickerman
now i just love to hear marshall's stan

i never thought to write a song
dickhead! people change... bing bong
i am from patna, proud to say
but man, these guys just love to play

Stare in my eyes, i' l tell u what's life
coz i have experienced the edge of knife
i can woo any girl, trust me about that
dont you frown at me; i know u r a brat

Enough for today, enough for now
time has come to say you chow

Cheers !

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

I have stopped feeling helpless now. I always know exactly what I want.

S-t-r-u-t me !
T-r-u-s-t me !

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Reason /Me\

Since WWII the West has seen a dramatic increase in divorce (6% to over 40% of first marriages), cohabitation without marriage, a growing unmarried population, and children born outside of marriage (5% to over 33% of births), as well as an increase in adultery (8% to over 40%). What's bad in that ?
People say what’s the use of holding back all the grief and let it mount to an unbearable degree! here when marriages fail; in turn I mean when the differences increase, dunno if u r in relationship but when u b in one u mite realize what small petty matters create a loop hole in marriages;
Tell you for instance , the previous weekend I was at my girlfriend's place. Well they had some problem at their place regarding their friend smoking and drugs. Coz she was doing a bit excess and naturally the friends were concerned. I dunno why girls are so girly. It really annoys me at times. Anyway later she went to “handle the situation of people frowning and shouting" I heard again and this time she was also at the top of her voice. So what was the end result? Nothing. She came back, I was a bit annoyed n told her what was the use of going there. Believe me explanation was way beyond my imagination. She was all concerned about her, told me that this is the way the problem is solved, we should make sure she doesn’t do drugs (though when they drink and smoke they all encourage each other to have a blast and party hard all their lives and all that shit). She told me that she shouts at first and then she would understand. Well then she condemned me of being selfish. I dunno, may be that I mite sound such while you read my blog; coz as u read u mite make a picture of me.( well that's not exactly u wish I am, no movie gags here)
There's a thin line between being selfish and being yourself. People say there's no black and white in everything, rather the midway "grey" everywhere. Either u r black or u r white; there's no grey. For every act, every decision every choice u have made in ur life the direction was simply all black or all white. No grey. If you agree with this you do get me what I say. Well as she explained her character that she shouts at first and then she cools off and understand. If you know that then you should have only explained later. Later we had a fight as she was telling me all this with all being grumpy and frustrated, walls were thin, I didn't want anyone to know I was interested coz I wasn't, I cared about her that’s it. Well her voice rose, and I pacified her by keeping mum. I didn’t want to fight as after 20-30 fights you tend to catch on. But naturally that instinct, that rush in me was there. As I took a bath, I found I was cool, hip hop again.

Well you see why sometimes you need to change partners, so ("Redefined Monogamy” is fine as when people actually are happy deep down after finding the solution you
Sudipti condemning it. so u exactly trying to stay that stick with your spouse even if u r happy, stressed, under peer pressure for making ur partner happy n act like one too." ironical!)
Coz once that adrenaline forgets how to get back, hell break lose. "Can you ever reason your experience" you can't buddy. As nothing is permanent so don’t judge, try to think before and act and depend only when your pride isn't at stake. And pride is not having an attitude for nothing, there has to be a reason. Reason is what we are endeavoring to reason at... What’s your reason to read and comment, think again, there is also a reason that you think..

Sunday, March 26, 2006


Cyrus is cool. Damn the Adrenaline! I don’t think the movie had any relevance in our real life, pura chutiyaap tha. I simply fail to understand the mob mentality that we entertain ourselves or we pride ourselves for watching what we don’t like, and still act entertained. Do you love to be a child prodigy, u pity the old man because he was miser, or like saif ;he had no right to do that.The whole idea of getting intellectual and interpretive is non sense, not because it's bad but that you don’t want to be as such exactly.
Temme why do we write blogs, is it for us or for others. When you start writing an article or something you just think about as what you feel and then as everyone judges it you say it’s my opinion.
Then why the fcuk u wanna share your opinion. Keep it to yourself.
Sometimes I feel saying I watched "BEING CYRUS" had become more important that saying I watched "SOUTEN".
U are slave to the people and society, being a social animal has made you a "So- shell Animal" Try to be free from everything Go a/c to Vedas n Gita.Dude I really don’t care why the people fear what they like, I really feel terrible for all those who have great sense of raunchy humor and still no guts to say them. I am not despising the movie, cause I went to see Saif, Dimple just because they act well, liked it because it’s different but was amused when I applied it to myself.

How about we make the next movie about "HAKEEM USMANI" Well you do travel by train and find the advertisement.... jerks!
Ha Ha

Tuesday, March 21, 2006



Euthanasia indeed is an obscure idea, but I think that's the solution, coz Even admittance in a hospital would not cure them in a day or two. It would take time, money for which I think Neelkanth would not be prepared. His sister is disabled,and his brother is completely non vibrant. I really feel so helpless as to pity neelkanth or to feel miserable for his kins. Mercy killing would atleast help all 3 of them to getover their everyday tear jerking, and let the kins embrace the eternal slumber. Moreover with time Eventually he would be healed.

I have always believed Experience is GOD, Well we really cant imagine their plight.
Been there,done that! Ironic isn't it?


Monday, March 13, 2006

Khichdi and Chokha

Sometimes You want to be many things you like. Sometimes you wish you could be the centre of attraction, or u yearned for being the issue. You wanna be the only one people love to appreciate about. Mehul ,I mean this mite not me very true to every extent but be mature and draw the corollary.

Well if you thinking you don't want to be as such, I say, think again dude/miss don't fool around with yourself right at this moment when you know what you craved the most when you have friends around discussing everyone but whoa... they missed discussing you ! I know it must have happened with you, but now you have forgotten.

Yesterday I was in a mood to make such people more depress, somehow I am not getting a feel today to write about it so lets chuck.

Holi was fun at home. Arhar dal, chawal, salad aaloo ka bhujia! Well everything was perfect.

I howver felt sad and depressed, it never happens with me usually but then I was think and I realised somethings. You seriously think: Every point and every stage of my life parents have always stood beside me, always wanting my improvement. I never understood when they said "This is for your benifit. I just want you happy" That killed me. Always the same old lines.
Sometimes I used to get spiritual and say, "I don't need materialistic things and stuff. Just let me be on my own. " At those times I realised this.

As when I thought to place myself in theirs and then be as distant from my son giving him so called "SPACE" I mean just not bothering him, while spending all my money, energy and strength, with tenderness and zeal and hope. My inner desire would always be that my son never feels defeated and whatever I have learnt from my experience ;I should tell for him to be all ears and and watchful. then I am not gonna curb my voice.

I really dont feel to talk about anything; just started to write without a purpose, watched "harold and kumar's trip to white castle"
They were playing battleship in toilet, where you sort of combat with the next guy by sound competition, they said "Its not about farts. Its about pursuit of happiness, its about being the winner about how healthy,clean and fit your body is".
That's why I love Philips and Terrance from South Park. Ashish Bhaiya I am really sorry !

Cheers !

I am a terrible writer and have really messed up here. sorry to waste ur time.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

staring and star gazing

"Believe me Lidya is awful". That's what aryaman told me. After talking to her for I don’t know how many days. I guess months..They finally met. They met at PVR Saket, Teasers. You know ofcorse. To smoke I-Gen and drink peer.Well Turquoise Cottage wasn’t far either but Lidya normally goes to Teasers.

I know that was beer!

And as Frustration leads to obliging; so wherever the girls want them to be they come. She asked him to come at 4.These iitians are dumb idiots, Except for their sheer intellect which can't even do a helluvajob they should be happy being acknowledged as Idiots In Town. As she stepped down her Yellow Zen (whoaa) she waved at him.
Wearing the new Levis shirt to look mature and black jeans with Adidas shoes, he saw her.
Shyt Man! watt a bhanngan!

Well, the hye comes naturally, and so does their so called "getting along", he started roaming about trying to avoid the people's eye. Couldn't even look properly to other people.
I pity him. Sometimes it’s so difficult to say to the girls how he exactly feels about her."We do have a situation here."

They went to barista, were having cappuccino and then she entered; his school buddy Riya. Let me describe her, 5 ' 6", fair, amazingly hot, smart trendy studying in Purdue.
"I believe you must have made the picture till now; enough to drool over if she necks you"
And the panic starts, “what the fcuk should I do “When the reputation amongst the buddies comes to question, even fear likes to pee.

He tells her “Let’s go. I gotta hurry. My uncle's gotta pick me up at 5. "Aryaman" Is that u? A voice called from behind
“No ” He says. It was indeed audible. Suddenly he was the main attraction.
Riya comes up; looking dead gorgeous, well people were eyeing him again with a different perception though.

He was really panicked, was not even thinking how to introduce her to her. He went to counter to pay the bill. It was as if the whole crowd was yanking him! As Riya comes up to him, he was so nervous that he ran.

Striking the Asahi glass door, hitting lidya's eyes, spilling the coffee over Riya he ran ...
he literally ran away from them. I really pity him.

“Sometimes it’s better to express your self at the first instinct than to feel even worse for the whole day later”

Now the question is ..."how's he gonna tell Riya who is lidya and how does he know her.. Is it through yahoo talks?”